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Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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12:54 pm
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No sign of Heero.
No sign of Duo.
Still... anywhere!
Is anyone else worried about this little fact, besides me? :p
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| Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
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10:22 pm - A whole year...
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... one whole year has passed.
Since we've last seen either Heero or Dawn, or heard from them. It feels somewhat unreal that that much time has passed since then... It's a very strange thought.
I have not the motivation to write in here for that long either. I have spent a lot of time dealing with business and trying to track down everyone. I know it's somewhat silly, and even pathetic, but I don't like not knowing where everyone are. Neither does Star-- but I think I'm more of a "worry rat" then she is. So I secretly tap into here and there, trying to find signs of people...
It's like I don't feel complete without them all. It makes me restless...
At least Dawn came home. Wow. It's so strange.
We've all grown so much.
current mood:  pensive
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| Thursday, August 15th, 2002
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1:25 am
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I just received a message from the Maganaucs back at the ship-- they also received the Brownie signal and some more it seems. Just flickerings, they said, of what it seems a machine trying to come to life. Rashid personally worked overnight to trace where the signal is coming from.
They've narrowed it down to a cluster of abandoned sattellite moons. A pretty big cluster... but it's smaller than... the whole space, at least.
Heero just shot off towards the coordinates Rashid gave us.
I have to go catch up with him now!
current mood:  awake
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| Thursday, August 8th, 2002
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11:20 pm - Whoa.
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Heero stopped by on the ship again to refuel Wing. And I tried to talk him into resting up a bit or at least having a decent meal or something---
Well, I could tell he was getting really anxious and tired because he snapped at me pretty badly when I tried to coax him into taking a break. He looked at me, a dangerous gleam in his eyes that made me step away from him without thinking. Then he started saying in a deep, monotoned voice that I didn't understand why he's doing what he's doing.
"Star is safe back on Earth. You're not suffering. All that ever mattered to you is her, and your whole life evolves around her because she's the only thing you live for, who you fight for." He paused, struggling to put into words his feelings. "I know that, deep down, you're relieved that it was Dawn not Star who were looking for right now."
I felt a cold shock when he uttered those words. It... didn't seem true until someone said it outloud...
And from Heero of all people...
He looked away, silent again for a moment. "I supposed that's not a sin. It's all right to feel that way. You do love each other, and that's not bad, though not the most logical feelings to keep during these times. Especially for someone like you." Then he looked at me, glaring again. "But don't tell me what I should be doing from now on. Dawn is missing, and unlike Star, she has no one like you who devotes every breath to her existence." He paused. "That's why I have to be out there, looking for her. I owe this to her since I can't give her what people like you can give."
I nodded, "Aa... Gomen nasai, Heero~kun..."
He just gave me a nod, "Besides. I can't stand the music your crew plays in here." He turns and stalks off, leaving me there...
...to realize Abdul is blasting Britney Spears over the intercom again.
As if things aren't bad enough -_-;
current music: Slave For You - Britney Spears
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| Tuesday, August 6th, 2002
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2:15 pm
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well, I guess I can update my journal with the latest news.
We've lost Dawn during the battle.
She's not dead but no one knows where she is either. At least, we'd all like to believe she's not dead. Apparently, Sally had her as a decoy with the other rebels. She thought that that would be the safest job the Dawn can do. The woman worries about her as much as all of us, I guess. They had a solid history together I believe...
Heero's out there again. Looking for her.
We told the news to Star earlier and of course she's upset. Well, more upset. She's not happy about being left behind in the safehouse... You know what though? with my own selfish reasons, I'm glad she's at the safehouse, gaurded and well-protected.
Safe.
I'm comforted to know that I can go back there and hold her anytime I want to.
I think about all this while watching Heero- even though he acts like a soldier only doing his duty to protect his comrades, I can almost tell how distressed he is at Dawn's disappearance. I can feel it... He's very good at hiding it, but I can feel it... His discontent and pain.
I feel guilty for my thoughts. My selfish thoughts, but it is the truth.
I pity Heero and I worry for Dawn's safety.
But it doesn't take away the small comfort of knowing Star's still safe and alive. I don't want to know what it would be like to loose her like that, not knowing if I'll ever see her again, if she's still alive...
I never want to do the same to her, either. She is more than enough reason I want to live...
To survive...
current mood:  complacent
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| Thursday, July 25th, 2002
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9:32 pm
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Sally~san contacted us a few hours ago. We decided to collaborate our plans on protecting the colonies. She said they've spotted the other Gunda pilots, but none of them would respond to her when she called them. ~sighs~ Typical of the others.
No wonder this war can't end, when no one wants to cooperate.
Sorry, getting a little cranky. I haven't slept for the past 24 hours.
I'm going to check up on Sandrock now, and prep him up for the battle that will commence in just a few hours.
current mood:  anxious
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| Wednesday, July 24th, 2002
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2:57 am - ~sighs~
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I don't like leaving the safehouse with Star mad at me. Well, not mad, but... upset.. disappointed.
Why is it always so hard for me to tell her about my missions? I usually tell her right when I'm about to leave and I know she hates that... But I just can't tell her in advance because she'll give me those looks, and say things that makes me want to change my mind...
It makes my job easier when I do this to her. I always try to make it up afterwards, but...
But I can't think about this now, I have my mission ahead of me. I can't afford getting distracted and becoming careless. It could cost me more than Star's anger.
I gotta go tell Abdul that Britney Spears is not an acceptable thing to blast in the ship's stereo. xP
current mood: anxious
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| Monday, July 22nd, 2002
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10:10 pm
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~blink~ I really am okay now ^_^ I must make an apology to Duo~san for beating him. (~coughs~ tho he rather deserved it..~coughcoughs~) But we're all OVER the porn thing, okay? XP
Heero has been gone for days. No one has heard of him at all since he left, and things are still relatively quiet. I'm worried he might run into something-- well, I'm always worried-- and get himself in danger. But I guess we're talking about Heero Yuy here, I shouldn't be too worried. ^_^
... I just got a message from Doctor H. It seems I have a new mission.
.....
It looks like Zechs is about to launch a new horde of mechas towards a cluster of colonies. I got to stop him before he launches them...
I wonder if the others got the same message?....
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| Tuesday, July 16th, 2002
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1:27 am
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I didn't get ANY sleep last night.
And no! Not because Star threw porn practically at my face! ;-;
I spent all night, racking up my brain on HOW the doujinshi could have appeared within my own library. I couldn't remember at first.. then it finally came to me....
A couple of years ago, before we met the girls, Duo was really bored and decided to throw all of us a "birthday party". He says it was because we never get to do that for ourselves, you know? He also thought it would be fun to give everyone their first hentai on that party. I don't know how he obtained it, since he's underaged, but...
Okay, I won't lie and say that I didn't look at it. I did look at it. Put aside all the killing and Gundams-- I'm still a boy! So I did look... and I put it aside, and hid it. Did I plan to look at it again? Maybe...
But I never really found the opportunity with all.. the war going on, you know. How Duo and the others do it, beats me...
I completely forgot I even owned that thing till now.
.......
I am so ashamed.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being perverted! I am so sorry, Star! And everyone else, too. ;-; I'm so very, very, very sorry...
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| Monday, July 15th, 2002
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1:44 am
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So I went to check up on things with the Gundams, right. I don't know... I suddenly felt like saying hi to them randomly, or something. Or maybe I was meant to always run into Heero when he's brooding about Dawn ._.
I saw him sitting there, at the foot of Wing, slightly banging his head on the hard metal. I asked him what was wrong... (like I didn't know already...)
He gave me a look at first. I couldn't decipher whether he was saying "Go. Away." or "You know what's WRONG, don't play dumb"
Well, I spent the next hour or two talking to him about it. He told me about the date, and the conversation. I really didn't know what to tell him anymore, though... I've given him every piece of advice that I could ever give someone... But Heero needs to learn to do things on his own. Because... he has to be different. There's no more anyone else can do for him. Unless he got a lobotomy or something.
Wah. Now I'm late going to bed and Star is going to be PISSED. ;-; At least I can blame it on Heero... I mean! No! that's cruel!...
Well, he DID keep me up....
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| Thursday, July 11th, 2002
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4:26 pm
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Duo's on a rampant again. Hopefully, he won't cause any more troubles with his little vacations. ~sighs~ Heero wanted to take off too, but changed his mind all of a sudden. Makes me wonder why...~raises an eyebrow~
Abdul's been down lately, complaining that he wants his cds back of a singer named Britney Spears. I guess he really likes her. Or something. o_O...
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| Wednesday, June 26th, 2002
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11:58 am
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Hrmmm... I think some of these livejournals need a new look or something ^^ since mine.. and Dawn's.. backgrounds have seem to disappear. I think I'll ask Dawn to make some new layouts since she seems to be skilled on that part.
If she doesn't get too lazy... o.o
Still nothing much going on.
Trowa came for a visit and seems to be staying more than a few days. He hasn't really said why he's here for that long, but no one's complaining, I guess. He seems to be extremely thoughtful all the time. Well-- more so than usual. I wonder what's bothering him?
current mood: anxious
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| Tuesday, June 4th, 2002
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10:52 pm
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I gave up trying to keep track of the people living with me. I don't know who's in or out or doing what (or who >_>)... I pretty much just keep an eye on the girls-- not that they can't take care of themselves, mind you. But the other guys... If I worry about them, too, I might just have a premature heart attack. o_o ~scratches his head~
I mean... the girls are a handful enough by themselves. Well-- Dawn's a handful enough. she comes and goes as she pleases too. Good thing I have good contact with Sally Po...
I think Star's the only one that gives me the least stress around here. She helps me relax, actually :)
And Duo-- quiet with your dirty mind. 9_9
Speaking of quiet. That's what everyone's been lately... Making me nervous here, ya guys...
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| Saturday, March 16th, 2002
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8:36 am - Ow my head. And ribs.
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I feel like I'm running some sort of nursery here. >_>;;
All right- apparently, Duo went off on an unauthorized vacation. And since Zechs is... an idiot- the girls found out he's going after Duo. What a mess.
~blinks~...
Well, I just got news that Dawn already took off after Duo. ~big sighs~ I think I'll have to go, too, and help defend against Zechs' attacks. What a mess.
The worst part is, Wufei and Heero are pretty mad- well... acting angrier than usual at least....- and I'm not sure if either wants to help Duo. o.o I guess I'm going to have to give them a bit of a talk....
Why isn't my job easy.
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| Sunday, March 3rd, 2002
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1:47 pm - All right...
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So I've been finally allowed to move up from bed and get on a computer. Star has been making me rest (too much ^_~) because of the few broken ribs I suffered from. It was not that bad in my opinion, but I suppose she knows best. Well- they always know best if you know what I mean.
Um- before I open my mouth anymore and get into big trouble...
Everyone has been allowed to have some rest time after the big battle.
I think.
I've been hearing complaints about glue on toilets.
~sighs~ Maybe I should go back in bed and read those books and watch that forsaken television. Oh dear. Mugen just passed by with a toilet seat on his rear. That could cause some mayhem around here more. Who knows what Mugen's going to think up with a toilet seat on his ass.
~crawls back over to his bed~
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| Sunday, January 13th, 2002
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7:45 pm - ~whistles~
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~taps his fingers on the desk~
Well, it's back to chaos and madness around here, I suppose ^_^
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| Wednesday, December 26th, 2001
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10:28 am - ^_^
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Wow, Duo, I never knew you could cook like that. Maybe I should just fire my cook and hire you instead.
...Don't let Cook Bob hear that. He'll throw pots at me. o.O;
I hope everyone enjoyed our little Xmas celebration. I'm sorry it wasn't really that much. It's been a tough year. I'll make up for the lack of things next time... :)
Hrm, things seemed to have quieted down tho. Maybe everyone's taking a vacation. I should check up on things though and see the updates on certain computers.... Just in case they're trying to catch us offguard, ne.
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| Tuesday, November 13th, 2001
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10:45 pm
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Heh. We... are sitting here in Alaska. Yes. The maganaucs are ready to battle anytime Zechs may appear. I should... go polish Sandrock now just incase! Make him all shiny! shiny shiny shiny! Shiny for a fighty!!!
.....Okay, no more extra sugar cubes in my cup of tea again. '
Uh, I mean. Oh no. Panic panic.
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| Sunday, October 28th, 2001
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2:20 am - Dum de dum..
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Well, I woke up from sleeping and I can't seem to fall back to sleep. So I decided to update this thing. ^_^; I was having the weirdest dream. I dreamt that Trowa was almost caught by OZ soldiers in a porn shop which Duo happened to be wandering in too. Then Dawn caught us watching the porno. Then Trowa and Duo had a disagreement, then they made up and Duo and Heero went and harassed Zechs. And Zechs is tracking us down at the very moment and Abdul got a livejournal---- Wait.
DAMN.
I need a nice cup of hot tea >_>
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| Friday, October 19th, 2001
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7:08 pm - Well...
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I suppose everyone wants to know what went on between me and my fellow pilots.
A couple of days ago, we decided it was time to really get down and have a serious meeting. Everyone agreed unanimously to this. At first, everything was going well, and we were all discussing each of our ideas and plans. Then- I don't know how it got started, really, but Duo and Trowa began to have an argument. At first, they kept it to themselves, but soon everyone were taking offense.
I *tried* to mediate for a little while, but gave up when I realized no one was going to listen. Especially Duo, he was being really stubborn and moody that day. In truth, Heero and I both tried to stay out of it and let them work it out by themselves. Wufei walked out about halfway through this.
Duo was practically shouting at Trowa who was taking it all too calmly, but I could tell he was burning. He talked back to Duo quietly and he made the most sense throughout the entire argument. At one point, I did interject and agreed with Trowa. This seem to piss off Duo more and he looked at Heero for support... Who stared back, picked up his coat, and walked out silently. Duo fumed and stomped out. Then, Trowa slowly walked away, shaking his head.
So, hmm... I guess someone's going to act mature now and apologize or something if we are to work this out.
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